change is scary but inevitable
tipape matayo@tipapematayo437098
6 days ago
CRUEL CHANGE
Hollow body,
a shell sculpted by hands that never asked permission.
My skull — a vault of blood,
not thought, not dreams, just circulation,
just survival.
The heart?
It pumps, yes.
But not for love, not for longing.
It’s a machine now,
a rhythm without reason,
a beat without belief.
I walk like a man,
but I feel like a blueprint.
A robot,
wired by whispers,
programmed by projections,
coded by cruelty disguised as care.
They called me rascal,
but never asked what made me rebel.
They named me mad,
but never saw the storm they stirred inside.
I’m angry —
not at the world,
but at myself.
For letting them shutter my mirror,
for letting their words graffiti my reflection.
Now when I look,
I see fragments:
a child who trusted,
a man who bent,
a soul that cracked.
And yet…
the mirror reflects more than pain now.
It shows movement.
It shows change.
But change —
it’s a blade.
It cuts through comfort,
slices through silence.
It hurts.
It terrifies.
It demands I become something
I’ve never dared to be.
Maybe this is a beginning.
Or maybe it’s just another loop in the labyrinth.
But I walk it.
Because I am a man
got no otherwise.
No rewind.
No retreat.
Only forward —
through the fog,
through the fire,
through the fragments of who I was
and who I might still become.
#poetry
